Ah. Just got back from the first committee meeting.
So late and freaking tired.
Luckily Say Meng sent us home. :)
Can't wait to get my driving license.
At least it'll save me a lot of trouble.

Just when I thought everything's over.
I'm so wrong.
Loads of stuff and events coming up. *_*
Why... Why now.
Got to do a lot of things.
-sigh-
Shall try to do them during the long Chinese New Year break.

Tired... Think I'll sleep soon.

It's finally over!
Over and done with AGM.
Had a good, long sleep.
Which resulted in me missing my IS. -_-"
Will be going for his make-up lesson tomorrow.
Hopefully I'll be able to rush back for ELTECH tutorial.

AGM was successful, or so I wish to think.
The rehearsal on Friday was quite a horror.
Freaked both Saymeng and I out, really.
No microphones, no projector cables, no chairs, no tables, no nothing?!
The LT was just empty.
We managed to 'steal' most of the necessary stuff from other LTs and functions.
Thank you lord.

Well, the draw is out.

President - Saymeng
Vice-President - Shun De
Secretary - Shurong
Treasurer - me
Logistics - Ben
Publicity - Waileong and Vivien
Head Of Group Leaders - Owen
Group Leaders - Cheryl, Jiling, Andrew, Hafiz, Chen Loon, Erin

During Linda's speech, she said the person whose going to take over her is very, very fierce.
Am I really that fierce?
I think I'm a nice chap. :X
Bah... I hope I don't spend the club fund away.
It's a lot of money, a lot. Thousands?
Oh man I'm feeling sore about Sava's $1000. -growls-

Caught Memoirs Of A Geisha with most of the senior ladies after AGM.
Ashley, Qijia, Qihui, Joyce, Nikkole, Jasmine, Vivien, Odel, Shurong.
Not forgetting Honggiap and Ken.
The movie's interesting.
But not advisable to watch if you're tired.
Michelle Yeoh is hot! So is Gong Li.

There's training tomorrow.
I hope Ashley don't make me lead.
I know nothing yet.
And... I don't want them to go so soon! :(
The Year 3s are my pillar of support.
If they're gone... I wouldn't know what to do.
Arg. I just can't bear the thought of them leaving. :(
Linda's going to transfer the club fund to me and Ashley gave me Wilson's number already.
NOOooooo...... -whines-
Meeting with the ex-Committee members tomorrow after training.
Hopefully things would go well.

I don't know what to do.

Okay enough about that.
By the way, I came home to realise that Cheryl actually cleaned the family area!
Haha. Miracle.
But it's not exactly that clean.
I still want to dumb some stuff.
Maybe I'll do it tonight after dinner with parents.
It's been quite some time since I had dinner with them.
Shall try to clear the cupboard at the staircase too.

Chinese New Year is coming! :D

So screwed.

It's been a bad week. Or should I say month?
Everything's just not going the way it should be.
Hope this dark period would end soon.

I'm almost done with AGM stuff, I guess.
Just got to wait for Saturday to come.
Can't wait for everything to be over.

My studies are on the rocks, unfortunately.
74/100 for ISSM and 96/100 for ELTECH.
Well you may say it isn't that bad.
But 74 isn't a high score.
It means that I got to work harder during examinations to prevent myself from getting anywhere below B.
Alright, maybe the above isn't that bad.
RE is really scaring the shit out of me, seriously speaking.
I don't even want to know my results.
I'm not going to do well.
I got to thank God if I can get a C, lest say a B.
And well, Mr. Phua refuse to return me my TPFF test paper.
I'm probably the only soul in the whole course who haven't gotten it back.
He wants to see me personally.
Guess it's probably cause I haven't turned up for lessons ever since... study break.
I'll see him tomorrow, I hope.

Will adjust my life back next week.
I really feel bad now. :(

AEM test tomorrow.
And I haven't studied for it.
I haven't even been attending his lessons.
Well, I'm going to take a gamble and go for the test.
If I can get at least a B for that test without the necessary preparations...
I'm going to continue taking it.
However, if that don't happen, I'm going to drop that module.
Although I really do like Mathematics... I can't help it.
I got to sacrifice this optional module for my other core modules.

-sigh-
What am I to do?
I'm feeling so lost now.
I don't even know if I can complete this semester happily.

By the way, I think I'm going to withdraw from D&D.
Yes, it's the last straw.
I can't focus on the things I'm supposed to.
And really, if I can, I don't want to drop AEM.
I need the time, as much as possible.
I'll go talk to Ah Bao after AGM I guess.
There's really nothing much I can do now, no?

This week's totally packed.
I'll be able to continue my cleaning only next week.
Chinese New Year is coming.
Finally.
My long awaited break.
And so.
Next week I'll try to be a good girl and attend all my classes.
This includes trying to complete some of the work and project I'm supposed to do.
Also, take a break, do some Chinese New Year shopping.
And if time permits, do some self-training.
That don't seem possible. :(

I can't breathe.
I think I'm on the verge of breaking down.

Blah.
Feeling so... Frustrated now.
It's like I'm going to burst.
I don't know why.
Maybe due to the lack of sleep?
I've been sleeping for say... Maybe less than 5 hours a night for the past few days.
Don't feel like sleeping.
I think my period is coming. :/
Not to add, I actually have got tonnes of work to do.
But I don't know how to start and how to go about them.

Dinner And Dance, can I withdraw?
I don't mind forsaking that free dinner, seriously.
I'm wasting everybody's time and also my own time.
And I hate wasting my time cause I'm already very tired and busy.
So stop, please stop making me do unnecessary and silly things!
Just stop bugging me for the moment alright?!
Annual General Meeting is coming. Arg.
We can't satisfy everybody.
We're not perfect.
You can't have this if you want that and you can't have that if you want this.
We're just going to go on with our plans.
There's no more time to make changes.
And please do not compare us with others, we are ourselves.
We're getting nothing in return for these shit, you know.
Try to understand.

Chinese New Year is coming.
I have yet to start cleaning the house. -major sigh-
Time, time, I need more time.
I want to self-train too.
But there's no time at all... How?!
I can't improve if there's no time to train.
I'll just be a burden.
If only I could be like others, so free.
They can do what they want to do and like to do.
It is easy for anybody to whine and complain.
Mind exchanging places?
Do not mock me if you haven't had a taste of what it feels like to be in my shoes now.
It is not fun.

And the worst part is, I don't have time for myself, sadly.

On a much lighter note as compared to the above.
No school tomorrow!
I think, I've decided, to not do leisure for tomorrow.
I'm either going to stay at home to clean the house.
Or self-training tomorrow in school.
It's a me day tomorrow.
So shut up and stay away from me.
Tomorrow, it's just me me me. :D
Unless Elaine calls for me, cause she's been rather down.
That, I can accept.
Hmm. The distance to school is quite a turn off though. :/
Maybe I should just run around the neighbourhood or something.
But there's no gym around.
Hmm. Shall see.

First training after so long.
Sea training.
The run almost killed me.
No, it wasn't the ankle.
Stomach pain. :X
And I puked after completing the bridge.
What the hell.

Sea rowing was fun!
Except the warm up set cause it took forever to reach the bridge somehow.
Wilson is back. :)
He taught us some fundamentals and corrected some stuff.
It was really fun.
Hopefully I'd still remember what he taught by next sea training.
Close legs, sit up straight, twist to the front, twist to the back, kicking, good dip, good length.
It was quite tough rowing back... With the constant pause. -_-"
Supporting arm was aching like crazy.
My back's dying now. Good sign?

He's really very motivating.
Guess I'll need to train harder physically wise more often.
My physical fitness level is like down in the dumps now.
Strength wise and stamina.
Guess the leg injury really got me this time round.
Train, train, train.
Well at least the ankle's not so bad now.
Just stiff. But much better.
Sea rowing, Wilson will settle for us. :D
I need to train harder to be on that boat.

Can't wait to see him again. :D
But no, I don't miss Mr. Tyre and Mrs. Triangle. :(

I'm done studying ELTECH! :D
Or so I wish to think?
Okay, not really.
A little doubts here and there.
But aish. That's about all I can do.

I think I'm really slack this semester. How?
Don't think I'm going to do well for this common test. -sigh-
Guess I'll just have to try to study harder for examinations.
I don't want any Cs! :(
My NTU dreams. Boohoo.

Busy, busy weekend.
After ELTECH I got to go Bedok for driving.
Hopefully I'd be able to meet Whale and Fishy for dinner. :D
Either that... Or I'll go have dinner with parents!
Having dinner with parents isn't that bad after all, you know.
Well after not spending time with them for the past few years...
Feels so much better now.
Okay I know this is going to sound so lame.
But I really got to thank them for bringing us up.
Kids can be such a pain in the ass.
I'm a very family oriented person okay. :P

Training's starting on Saturday!
Finally.
Miss sea rowing.
And I'm going to finally join them for the run.
I hope I don't come crawling back. *_*
Wish me luck man.

Sunday would be work.
Nothing much to say about work... It's always the same.
I admit I work for the sake of the money.
Who doesn't?

Next week, school's going to finally start.
After the pretty long break.
The first two days would be slack for me.
Monday IS and Tuesday holiday. -grins-
I can't wait for Monday.
At least it calls for a rest day since I'll be training and working during the weekends.
Then again, Chinese New Year is coming! :D
Wheeee!
Doubt I'd be going to school for that whole bloody week! -double yay-
Monday and Tuesday would be Chinese New Year holidays.
Thursday and Friday Open House!
Don't you just love Open House?! Hah.
Wednesday, well, feck that. :X

Chinese New Year = Cleaning Time! -triple yay-
I shall dump, dump, dump!
I love cleaning.
Not cause I love cleaning itself but cause I want to live in a cleaner environment.
The whole house's so messed up.
I especially hate it when I clean, and others mess the place up again.
Bloody shit.
I'm so going to throw all the damn stuff away.

Alright, I should hit the sheets now.
Oh ya. Cheryl and Eunice's going to Genting in the morning.
Without me.
-off to cry-

One more paper to go! :D
ELTECH baby!
Haven't finish studying for it but what the feck I don't really care. :P
I'm on holiday mood already.
Although the past few papers weren't very good, what ever beaver.
What's done is done.

Anyway, driving tomorrow after paper. :D

Gosh.
I can't believe I'm still slacking here.
I haven't started on ISSM. :X
And RE was demoralising enough. -_-"
Blah.

Maybe I should start on ISSM, like now.

Wheee.
Just finished doing ELTECH tutorials.
Finally done.
Pretty fun.
But I scared I forget. :/

Ah. RE tomorrow.
-pray-
Actually I'm quite afraid that I forgot RE stuff already.
It's been... Quite some time.
Geez. Why must I have short-termed memory?!
I'm too lazy to refer to the notes now.
Shall go read through on my way to school.
Aish.
I'm sick of studying.
Just let it be.

Relationships are such complexed issues.

I don't feel like studying anymore! -screams-

I'm at 2.3 for ELTECH now.
But it's starting to get boring. :/
And I haven't touch ISSM?!
-gasp-

Feel like not studying for ISSM at all.
The sight of the book is disgusting enough. *_*

Bleah.
Just finished till Section 1.3 for ELTECH.
There's like till 1.7, and also 2.1 to 2.8.
Hoho. But it's not that bad.
Okay I prefer to stay optimistic. :X
Think I should go sleep early tonight.
Though it's already like 4AM.
Whatever.
Sleep early wake up early.
Shall go have war with ELTECH first thing when I wake up.
Got to try and finish till Section 1.7. *_*
The questions seem hard though. :(
And of course, I got to start on bloody ISSM.
-starts praying-

Start your day the holy way with Christ Checks.

Woot!
I just finished TPFF.
Like finally huh. -_-"
Took me so damn long.
I think I'm taking too long to study...
Especialy for RE and TPFF. :/
Shall take a break and start with ELTECH.
Gah. Hopefully I won't get stuck or something again.
Tomorrow's ISSM day. -growl-

Didn't sleep much at Fishy's place.
Think it's the coffee. Too thick. :X
But I still like black coffee! -jumps around-
Odel came very late.
Fishy is a pig.
And we found out her dirty little secret.
Michelleeeeee. -giggles-

Anyway, luckily managed to sleep a little after our very weird chit chat.
Or else I think I would have like crashed my instructor's car or something.
Driving was fun. :D
I didn't stall. Hah!
Kind of getting the hang of the gear changing thing.
Think my next lesson would be next Friday after ELTECH paper.
Wheee. So fun.
When I was planning my schedule with him, there was a slight problem.
I realised I'm very busy.
Trainings and school and work.
Can hardly find time to learn.
Guess I'll try to have lessons on Monday after IS, Friday after school and maybe Saturday morning before training.
Bleah.
My life sounds so eggciting. :/

Starting work this coming Sunday.
Finally.
Well, at least it means I'd have some extra cash.
I'm so broke. *_*

Alrights. Shall go slack first.
Every minute of slacking is important. :X

At Fishy's place again.
Hohoho.
Poppy just bit me.
My poor hand, bled.
Fishy's a good nurse though. :)

Anyway, I gave up on TPFF.
I just don't get some of the stuff!
Shall ask Minghui later in the afternoon.
I give up on ELTECH too.
Catch no balls man.
So okay, I shall rest for now.
Tomorrow, chiong everything. -starts praying-
-sigh-
Think I'll only be able to start studying for ISSM only on Monday or so.
Hopefully I'd be in time.
Damn I shouldn't have wasted so much time during the study break. Tsk.
Dear Lord, please give me the strength to perservere. -_-"

Odel's not here yet! -shake head-
It's like super late already. Haha.
And Fishy's sleeping already.
I don't want to study anymore. Shall self-entertain. :X

Driving later in the afternoon!
Luckily I'm at Bedok now.
Easy to get there. :)

Alrights.
This is how I'm spending New Year.
Great. -groans-