strength.

my heart sank.
but at the same time, my heart was cold.
unimaginable, how could it be?
i think i'm confused.
as to what to feel, and how to deal with it.
i wonder if it's cause of the age/maturity.

then again, they say:
everything will be okay in the end.
if it's not okay.
it's not the end.

i will get through this.
cause i am stronger than that.

two more days.
need some peace in here.

whatever bloody comes!

sign of getting old.

today Anthony plucked out two strands of white hair from my head. :(
mel is very sad.
i think my hair is grey-ing. D:
better not find anymore white hair, or i am going to go into depression.

okay i probably need to just relax a bit.
i think my hair works with my mood.
last semester i got so bloody stressed out that i dropped lots of hair!
i didn't notice till my hairdresser pointed out that my hair was thinning at certain areas. :/
but my hair returned to normal after the semester ended with a bang!
like cleared my modules and pm kind of boomS! you know?

Anthony is back from paternity leaveeeee.
great! i was getting bored at work!
his daughter is soooo cuteee! :D
am thinking of getting him a diaper cake for the 1st month!
i hope i remember!

my supervisor haven't told me what to do for my project.
i am so screwed.
but what the hell, i shall get things going myself!
am going start on my crazy genius idea!
okay not so crazy and not too genius, but you get the drift.
i feel like some kind of 'smart ass' to start on my project without any guidance.
i wasn't even told of the scope or what am i supposed to do! bloody hell!
experimenting starts tomorrow!
i hope i don't cause any major upsets to the plant! -pray-

oh and did i mention i cleaned my car?
i am so proud of myself. :D
it took me hours!
and midway i felt like giving up.
but i can't possibly do that cause the car would look half cleaned. :/

i have a new hobby!
picking out ticks from the three dogs.
it's pretty fun, and i think it keeps me busy and calm for awhile.
i probably can increase my level of patience through this activity.
awesome!
am going to continue doing that everyday till i find not even one on them!

and i wonder if the photos would work.
53 metres chimney! ;)

it's hugeeeeee

after damn bloody tiring ladder climbing! at the top!

damn highhhh

awesome! and it was gonna rain!

wokays!

till next time! when i find more interesting stuff at work! ;)

just a few more steps closer to insanity.

mel is grouchy.

must be the milk powder.
or probably the heatiness.
god. i wish liang cha was readily available.
maybe i should just cut off ties with kopi and kopi-o.
and live on porridge.
but i think i will be even more grouchy if i do that. :/

life is already pretty sucky.
and now i can't even breathe properly. bloody hell.

got to control temper and be more patient.
i used to think i've got lots of patience to spare and am good tempered.
apparently not anymore. :(
whatever happened?!
or probably i'm not that kind of person in the first place.
i am confused.

aish.
i know i know.
i can do it. i can do it.
WHATEVER COMES!
JUST BREATHE!

the only real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes.

-growl-

shutting down!

so f-ed.
i think i have high tolerance.
awesome. bring it on man.

whatever helps me sleep at night. -growl-

i think i learnt more about cars than engineering-related stuff at IA.
we DIY-ed something.
monitoring monitoring fuel consumption!

finally serviced car!
8 spark plugs + engine oil + air filter.
wa the air filter is dirty until... i think the service guy was in shock.
he went in to get a new one for comparison to my old one.
mine's black, the new one's yellow. great!
next up!
gear box oil, brake fluid, fuel filter, tyre rotation!
one at a time one at a time.
and i want crystal wipers! :(
slowly slowly.
the car outside cui nevermind, inside okay can already. :P

i am such a noob/ignorant that my colleagues wanna smack me.
but they've been nice.

-growl-
mel is hungry.
where is food? :(