thank you.

worst birthday dinner of the entire 24 years of my life.
i got to take my hats off you.
in a blink of an eye, you turned a supposedly light-hearted happy event to such a disastrous one.
i always thought i'm someone who is ice cold enough to be able to withstand any kinds of emotional breakdown.
the only time i let my emotions run free was during races.
but hell the dinner was an eye-opener.
it took me great effort to prevent myself from literally breaking down infront of the rest of them.

what i felt was no longer anger or frustration.
it was just disappointment and the feeling of being 绝望.
i really don't know what else to do with you, and how to cope with whatever you bring to us.
the only thing i know i have to do now, is to step forward and take care of the rest of them from now on.
i will not depend on you, never.
i will do whatever it takes to make them happy, and not let you interfere with that.

we tried to help you, i tried to help you.
but it seems that you will never learn and you will never change.
i will finally accept that from now.
so, good luck in whatever comes your way.
for i've done my part.
and i have nothing more to offer.

i can do it.
GO ME.