be in the moment.

someone once told me.
BE IN the moment.
trying to learn.

funny feeling.
no, actually not funny at all.

it's easy to let go and not care.
but i wonder if i can take the possibility of regrets.
i hate this part.
i hate regrets.
i think too highly of myself (i am aware of this but of course, it's just another way of preventing myself from being impulsive cause i hate mistakes) to regret anything.

i wish i was more emotionless.
i wish i didn't have to think for others.
but i can't and it's killing me slowly.

i can't open up.
and i don't like the reason why i can't open up.
it's not the same, it's not what i thought it would be.
i think i was expecting too much...
is it my fault now?

it is not my fault and yet it is my fault too.
but why like that?
not sensible enough?

never learn, always wait for things to happen.
well, MAKE THINGS HAPPEN!

logic, common sense!

and i'm not making sense anymore.

and i think i think too much.


life is short.
be in the moment.