ouch.

Tuesday's with Lori - Straight Girls


aww she's cute.
but oh man ouch on her story.
especially the part when she describes the girl.
she looked so saddddd.

guess that's just part and parcel of being gay.
isn't the easiest kind of lifestyle.
and you wouldn't understand unless you're in it.

not too long ago this thought came to me.
it's so easy being straight, or maybe that's what i feel.
you get accepted socially, get married, start a family, blah blah blah.
then i was trying to imagine myself doing that.
like you know, me, straight, with a random guy, start family, blah blah blah.
i know it's so funny, it took me damn long to even think about it.
but the next thought that came was like...
i would probably still be attracted to women and maybe end up cheating on the guy.
because i doubt i would ever feel settled or satisfied with the so-called "normal" life.
the attraction is not the same.
the feeling is not the same.
just doesn't feel like a life i would want to live.

of course, you can say i haven't try so how would i know right?
i questioned myself too.
so i try not to be an extremist...
if i do like a guy in the future, then so be it.
but so far, i haven't had a tinge of even the slightest feelings towards anyone of the opposite sex.
so there.

on the other hand, everything about women is :)